Moving From Behind the Shadow

Processes aren’t easy. I knew God was doing something massive when he began to pull the false identities from under me like a rug.  It started when I looked in the mirror and couldn’t identify the person who was looking back at me. I tried to play it off by saying maybe it’s the new…

Walking Away From People Pleasing for Good

People pleasing is an inner battle without a face. It walks around unnoticed and gets mistaken a lot of times for selflessness.  In reality, people pleasing is rejecting our own needs to doing something just to avoid conflict or to make someone happy.  Many kids in foster care become people pleaser out of the fear of…

Sweet Florida Lessons

I’ve traveled to over 25 states in America, some of the most life changing lessons I learned were in good old  Sunshine State Florida.  In my post Sweet Encounter with FREEDOM  I shared about my experience at King Jesus Miami. But in this post I want to share about lessons I learned from my sister while…

Addressing Inner Wounds

As a person who endured childhood abuse  and trauma I learned to internalize emotions as a way to cope and to survive. If I was hurting I smiled, If I was overwhelmed and frustrated I smiled , When I was manipulated and tormented I smiled. I never really told anyone how I really felt.

Forgotten Tears of A Mother

Who would have  thought a 45 minute conversation  with my mother would  change my whole perspective and attitude towards my mom.  God has such a way of doing the unexpected and beyond expected. For many years I have carried resentment, UN-forgiveness, and hatred towards my mother for placing me in adoption.  5 years ago the…

The Season Before The Next Season…

I don’t know about you but I love going to IKEA. I can spend the whole day there and not get bored. Browsing through showrooms getting lost in all the design layouts and ideas is my happy place.  There is one thing about IKEA I don’t favor. The part when I get home, open the…

Beautiful Surrender: Letting Go

Placing my hands up in surrender I whispered to the lord ” I surrender my reputation”  As tears drop I knew this had a deeper meaning then what I could understand at the moment.  A few months ago I remember a similar conversation with God  but I was surrendering every relationship I put above God.

Tips on Meeting Birthparents

Meeting my birth mother at the age of 24 came with so many lessons here’s the advice I would give at 28 years old. Get a cup of Tea and  sit down let me share some treasures with you:

I’m Just Unfinished.

Originally posted on Massiel Vargas:
Jeremiah 17:9 NLT I remember being very emotional at everything that would come my way. I wasn’t sure how to deal with circumstances I was in, it almost felt like anything that would come my way was just crumbling my world. Tears would run down my face, crying became my hideaway…

Purity after Sexual Abuse

I heard the Lord whisper to me “There is Purity after Sexual abuse”. The words sparked me because I never thought I would be able to see myself as pure with such a dirty and dark past.

Sweet Encounter with FREEDOM

At the age of 14, I could  pretty much name every self-help book out there.  Its fair to say  since I was younger I’ve been trying to fix myself.  The mirror has always reflected brokenness to me. If you would have ask me if I could have anything in the world what would it be…